Those Pampers People Know What They're Doing

In an effort to be environmentally conscious, we were using Seventh Generation diapers. They have no chlorine, and chlorine is bad because it produced dioxins, which are very very bad. They're also supposed to be able to break down easier in the landfill. However, the 7thG diapers leak like hell. I didn't realize this wasn't a normal diaper experience until I was sitting in the breastfeeding support group amongst a circle of women and of course of course Lucia has a massive poop-out. A poop-out, for those of you not familiar, is when she poops and it leaks from the diaper all over her clothes and up her back, etc. So she has a massive poop-out and the mother next to me says, "Are those Seventh Generation? They leak really bad."

SO much of being a mother, so far, has been fumbling along for me, not having any sense of what's normal and what's not. It's like being lost and not being able to find your bearings. I don't know what I don't know. 

So I mention the poop out to Mary, who says to switch to Pampers, that they don't leak. I was reluctant, as we have about a million packages of Seventh Generation diapers. But tonight's poop-out was the icing on the cake. And by icing, I mean pumpkin-soup consistency absolutely all over her and having to change her in the trunk of the car and having to strip her down naked when it's 50 degrees out, resulting in her making the most horrific cries and subsequently ripping my heart out. It was a real delight. We bought pampers on the way home, and we'll be using these from here on out. I'm returning the 7thG diapers to Whole Foods and hoping for a store credit. 

While I feel a slight tinge of guilt over the environmental implications of us using Pampers, I can't handle poo everywhere. I'm drinking a beer to calm my very frayed nerves. Thank god my mom was with me to help me clean Lucia up and get her calmed down. Gawd.